Discontent

Hello guys. how are you holding up?

I'm twenty this year - yes, if you are a higshchool student or lower reading this, you'd think i'm that old - let me tell you that time is a very sly thing. Because, i'm, too, perplexed of how time went by so fast. it never stops nor it reminds me of its existence. we're so busy living that sometimes we only remember time is running out only at a moment like this - reaching twenty.

I have so many question about myself. what am i going to do after i graduate? what can i do to contribute myself to society? am i taking the right path? and so on. they say you have to look deep within yourself in order to get the answer. everytime i  seek for the answer, i always end up with the same result, 'i dont know' 'i'm not confident' 'what are you doing?' 'it's not here'

at first i chose to ignore them and let time do its job. now, i dont have much time and i still got nothing. when i got slap by the reality that my time's not that much, i started to actually face the problem and contemplate on it. i finally came into a conclusion that the answers above lead me to one thing: i'm not content of myself.

i don't know if a human being will ever reach the state of self-contentment, but im sure everyone spends their whole life to feel content, to feel whole. i'm no different. im still trying to figure things out in my life. i don't know how yet, but one thing for sure i have to step up my game because i had miss so much opportunities along this way.